6.58pm

at this moment, i ask myself;
what is love? if you fail in love, you will be utterly hurt, cry, sob, disappointed.
if you succeed in love, what do you get? a partner to accompany you? someone to hold? hug? kiss? is it really that important? and the most you will get is make a family with him or her? and then spend your later part of your life together?
i see no point in doing all these..cause for me, since the chances of failing is higher, i dont see the reason for hurting myself. of course, if you find someone you like, and likes you too, then go for it.
but whats the percentage of that happnening? most of the time, you dont get what you desire for in life. its just so unfair.
people reading this post may think that i dont know anything about love. i agree. i once was drowned in it, loved the feeling of being loved. but i just dont remember how i changed to this state. but since im here, i'll just have to face it.
so why are people doing things to hurt themselves? why do people want to do that? its no difference from paying to kill yourself.
this post maybe shit and crap next time, but for now, i question myself what is love? what do you get from it? happiness? are you trying to say that you cant be happy without love? i think, you will be happier without it. when you succeed in love at a young age, you tend to foresee some important things in life. you tend to not care about people around you. and they will hope to see you return to your normal self, but watching you having a nice time with your partner, they'll just keep quiet.
people say that love is blind. i say that lovers are blind. they will not see nor feel things around them. open/close their eyes, theres only their lover's image. if you are unlucky, people around you will just start to avoid you. and soon, your partner too.
thats the time when you will be alone. no one to talk to, no one to lean on. and if theres someone of the opposite gender who comes forward and comfort you now, you will like them, and the cycle starts again.

baah..this post maybe meaningless la.. but its a good way to spend my time =)

what the hell is wrong with me? i cant control my own emotions..she just keeps appearing in my mind..can there be a solution to this shit? its getting on my nerves..